Lisan ...

11/2/2009   8:51 something

Its finally over !! Hurray , I survived !! Not the nuclear holocaust I'd expected , but it can be worse ...

Me , sitting on a chair in front of the whole class . I would be shaking if there are no team members , so I guess I owe them something . BTW I did shake at some point like a WW2 soldier after a shell landed near him . Shaky . Damn , I don't like it , why is it so hard to stay calm . I keep telling myself its no big deal and yet I still act like a cell phone in silent mode receiving a call . Damn

And stuttering/stammering . WTF is wrong with me . 

After listening to the teachers comments , I figured that I am the worst of the 5 people . Even though I assured myself in every group one must be the worst , I'm still pissed off . Blame myself for breaking down , for failing to execute a simple memorize and speak thingy properly , for not able to speak and think at the same time , and f-f-f-or st-am-m-mering .

Anyway , I won't be staying long here at Malaysia to maximise my BM education .

Shit . At least I can be sure that I won't suck at oral entirely . Its in English .